Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Endlessness

I don't even know where to start.

I spent the evening organizing my house. I got all my papers in order and in files..which made me really happy. The house still needs to be cleaned, but all the clutter is gone and the cleaning can proceed tomorrow night.

It's supposed to snow tonight. I've got the back door open, and it's starting to get chillier by the minute, so we'll see. I went out tonight and redid the car seat/booster seats for my kids, just so I know they are in well and if I hit any ice tomorrow morning, it won't be so stressful.

Work is such a drag. I still don't know if I'm going to be written up or not, I still suspect I am. I am still so mad, I think I will file a grievance if he does do it. I'm just not feeling super generous right now. At least not with work. I really don't want to be there, most of my work is done and I'm bored out of my gourd.

It's just been a weird intense week with my mom and sister here. No fights, so that's a good thing, but I just wish sometimes I had family to help me. I'm getting better at this single parent thing, but it's still pretty tough, and I'm still dealing with a very involved daddy, so I know it's easier for me than someone completely on their own.

I can't seem to write anything, and feel completely blocked.

All I can say is I'm really looking forward to this weekend and some alone time.

4 comments:

C said...

hey M,

left ya some love over at my blog... come and get it..

c

CJ said...

Hang in there! Single parenting is tough, but it has it's strong points...enjoy your alone time!!

MakingSpace said...

There seems to be a lot of that not knowing what to do/where to start energy around... I've got a good song over on my blog, check it out!

CJ said...

I'll bet you will be able to write this weekend, once you are away from work and can relax a bit. Happy Friday Montana. Hope you have a great weekend.